哀しみは春の憂ひとなりにけり夜毎の夢の冥き色合ひ
my sorrow
becomes melancholy of
spring
nightly dreams have the dark hue
in hades
( C)2021Rika Inami 稲美 里佳
先日、とても考えさせられたことがあった。
ある人に「それが何の意味があるのか」と問い詰められたからだ。事の詳細は書かないが、「意味がなければ、事を起こしてはいけない」と言われたように感じ、考え込んでしまった。
私の答えは決まっていた。
「社会正義のため」
これに対して彼は
「そういうのは、もっと上の人たちがやる問題だ」と言った。私が口にするのは憚るべきだと言わんばかりであった。
一瞬、むっときたが、ここはいつもの我慢、私はぐっと抑えこみ、相手が納得するような答えを言って事をおさめた。
大きくうねり変化してゆく時代の片隅に生きつつも、小さな存在の抗議告発もいつか大きく輪を広げ、泣き寝入りせず諸悪に対抗し、正義が貫かれる社会を願い目指し、私は生きてゆきたい。
「四知（しち）...後漢書」 天知る、神知る、我知る、子（人）知る。
In English
Yesterday, I was very thoughtful.
Someone asked me,
"What is the meaning of that? "
I won't go into the details, but I felt as
if I was being told, "If it doesn't make sense, you shouldn't do it.
My answer was obvious.
"For justice."
To this, he replied
"It isn't your matter. That's
a matter for those higher up," he said.
He seemed to think I should not dare to say
anything about it.
For a moment, I felt angry, but as usual, I kept my patience and ended the conversation with an answer that would satisfy him.
Though I live in the corner of the swirling
and changing times, I hope that my small protests and accusations will someday
expand into a larger circle, that I will be able to fight against evil
without crying myself to death, and that the world will become where justice is done.
"The Four know ... from Houhan Shu" means: Heaven knows, God knows, I know, and You know.
